Just got really sad all of a sudden
Let me clarify
I think it’s incredible for Code Orange to be getting as much attention as they are, they have worked their fucking asses off to get to where they are today. But in no way shape or form do I support or encourage violent ignorant moshing where you are actually targetting people/punching people who are just standing and watching a band.
That shit is not what hardcore is about.
I need to go to the doctor tomorrow and I really really don’t want to. I have the worst anxiety when it comes to going to a doctor. I’m actually terrified and I don’t even have an appointment.
I’ve been sick with who knows what for over a month. First I thought it was a cold, then I thought allergies, then I thought bronchitis, now I just have a stuffy nose and cough that won’t go away.
Meanwhile, I have been having intense pains in my stomach when I stretch my muscles too much, or even just doing something like getting out of the car..or reaching for something on a shelf. My ribs hurt as if I bruised them or someone sat on me.
I haven’t felt completely “good” in a long time. I’m sick of being sick.
Josh quit Big Y. Now he works at a coffee shop in New Haven